You miss the first steps. The first words. The first day of school.
You're hundreds of miles away while your kid blows out birthday candles on a FaceTime call with shitty signal.
Your wife handles everything alone while you're gone. Then you come home and feel like a guest in your own house for the first few days.
The guilt eats at you.
You tell yourself it's for them. The money. The benefits. The future.
But then your kid asks "why do you always have to leave?" and you don't have a good answer.
This job takes more than your time. It takes pieces of your life you don't get back.
And nobody talks about it because we're supposed to be tough. We're supposed to just grind.
But the paycheck doesn't hug you back.
If you're out there on a hitch right now missing your family...I see you. A lot of us are right there with you.